Théun, I did not grasp what you have been pointing out to me about being vain. What exactly do you mean by this?
Perhaps you are not fully conscious of this, or perhaps you have just not WANTED to be conscious of it, but you really are the proverbial Mr. Body Beautiful. By this I am not implying that it is BAD to have a beautiful body, but what I AM saying is that you are still IDENTIFYING with your body, that is, with the form-side of life, rather than with life itself. You therefore think you ARE your body, your emotions, your mind, your behaviour etc., etc. This is not an easy concept to grasp, so dwell on it, not intellectually, but allow yourself to acquire a feeling for what is LIFE, as opposed to the form-side of life. You are the indwelling LIFE utilising the form.