Théun, I feel very confused at this point in my training. I no longer know when I am being impeccable or simply seeking for approval in my actions. Can you please help me get a handle on where I am at?
LOL! I am not at all surprised that you are confused! You are NOT Joan of Arc, and neither are you the Virgin Mary! So you should do yourself a favour and STOP swinging so violently between the polarities!
To tell you the truth, you make me feel quite nauseous, as in SEA-sick, in witnessing your actions! The one moment you are declaring WAR on the world around you, and the next moment you are LOVING the world to DEATH! LOL! But either way the world is busy DYING at your HANDS! The one moment you are busy telling the warriors OFF in no uncertain terms, and the next moment you are GROVELING at their FEET! What next? Are you now going to try and SHOUT at their FEET? Or are you just going to try to lick them between their TOES? The THOUGHT is quite amusing; but the FEELING is that you are ASKING for a kick in the TEETH! <wg>