"So we are back to being aggressive, yes? LOL! But I don't mind. :) "
I am obviously missing the plot completely. Your words did shock me in the beginning. I did not think them cold and HEARTLESS, I just did not really understand them. As for being aggressive, that was not my intention, my intent is to learn and that means that given my ineptness I am going to put my foot in it and get slapped. B-:). It does seem evident though that I need to better control my intensity.
"I think it is! LOL! Clearly your perception of the female is that she is somehow a second-rate citizen."
That I had not considered and I will work with that. Thank you.
"Shrug! I have told you what I know. If you want to do the breathing then do not let me stop you. Do as you deem fit. I don't even know what kind of meditation you are doing. But does it matter?"
I am not doing the breathing exercises and will not. I meant it when I said I would respect your guidance. I am doing a simple mantra meditation seated in sort of a half lotus. I find it helps me stay calm during the day and I very often get insights as my mind becomes quieter. The mantra is simply a tool to drag my mind away from its usual crap.
"LOL! I did not say this. We do remember the knowledge gained from female incarnations very vividly! But this, you moron, does not tell us what our female direction is. Sure we can make calculated guesses. But guesses, whether calculated or not, are still only guesses! I don't give forth guesses, my friend. Unless I can give FACTS, I would rather say that I do not know! Sorry to disappoint you!"
Thank you for clarifying, and yes I can be a moron at times. B-:) I was trying (badly) to ask for more clarification. Disappointed in any guidance I have ever received from you, NO. Shocked, unsettled, completely disoriented, angry, sometimes 'hurt' and many other GOOD effects. Of course I have also often mis-understood it. Disappointed, never. Thank you.
I feel I am still missing something though, and I apologise if I am being moronic again. I feel the need to express a great deal to you Theun, much is going to be perhaps, stupid, or arrogant, or whatever. I still wish to express it, and unless you guide me other wise will continue to do so. This way I will learn, and gain clarity even if its means getting slapped silly in the process. I will do my best to express myself better and read more carefully.
Yet another dream, . Of this I do not remember a great deal, except a name which was repeated both audibly and visually many times so I would remember it.
I am guided/shown to a house to meet 3 wise men, the Ghustavos who were seated in a semi circle and dressed in ceremonial robes of yellow. They address me (I do no remember what was said) and one of them seated me and placed an hand on my shoulder.
I see and hear the name "the Ghustavos" flashing like a neon sign several times, and then I am given a book with a metal embossed cover showing a steam locomotive (Iron horse) and frontiersmen walking beside it (an army), one of the wise men or his predecessors is riding on it. The train is going from right to left in the picture. Behind the train is a hill, and as I focus on it if changes into a live scene shown a green hillside populated with houses/cottages in Swiss style. The focus changes and I am once again seeing and holding the book.
My understanding so far:
I am being guided toward my purpose (represented by the "Ghustavos") even though I am still bound to my view of the world [house/book]. This requires me through joy and creativity  to find the vitality and strength [yellow robes] needed to relate [hand] to the world (and my purpose) response-ably [shoulder]. I must use both sobriety [see] and feeling [hear] to understand the signs [neon sign]
My purpose will be revealed through practical/physical action [army]I must hunt [frontiersmen] that which will allow me to see through 'my' view of the world [book] and find hope [hill].
The occult symbol for iron is the same as the symbol for the male, and Mars. I'm not sure how relevant this is. This leads me to understand the iron horse as representing friendship and loyalty with/to the male as an aspect of my purpose. Mars could represent the God of War, i.e. destruction but that may be stretching. The Swiss houses reminds me of the Swiss flag, white cross on a red field.
Searching the internet for Gustavos, the entry that literally resonated for me was on Wikipedia on Gustav II Adolf http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gustavus_Adolphus_of_Sweden , and in particular 2 phrases that appear in the article:
"The Golden King"
"The Lion of the North"
When I say resonated, I literally got chills when I read these (and this has always been a sign that I need to pay very close attention). Another entry that I found elsewhere on the meaning of the name Gustavo said: "royal staff" or "Staff of the Goths" which did resonate a little, though I could not identify the feeling precisely. It reminded me of your vision and a painting I have dome for me by a psychic.
"The Lion of The North" refers to some sort of prophecy also referred to as "Der Lówe von Mitternacht" (Literally: "The Lion of Midnight") which I did try to read without making much sense of it. I did not get any real feeling when following this trail, so I am assuming that I need to focus on the words rather than the history.
Instinctively, I would say that these phrases describe my purpose in some cryptic way. Particularly if I am correct on my dreaming class and give my direction. However I suspect that its not quite so simple LOL. Any guidance you can give me I'm sure would be valuable.
With regard to the insects, thank you. I think that two shortcomings that I need to address in terms of the dream are TEMPTATION (the cockroach) manifesting as Not Listening and Rebelliousness (LMAO) and JUSTIFICATION, and RESISTANCE (ants) manifesting as Aggression, Inflexibility, Not Listening and Wanting life on my own terms. Am I one the right track? :) I know I can lay claim to some of the other shortcomings too.
With much love and respect
"As for being aggressive, that was not my intention....."
We are the product of our speech, my friend. So it is a piss poor excuse to say that you are inept with words, or that you do not know how to express yourself clearly. Which comes first, the chicken or the egg?
"I feel the need to express a great deal to you Theun, much is going to be perhaps, stupid, or arrogant, or whatever."
And you are welcome to express yourself. But take CARE with choosing your words IMPECCABLY, by remembering that you are the product of your speech. Blavatsky once said that the universe is never again the same for every word spoken. And I can confirm this.
".......even if its means getting slapped silly in the process."
Why do you keep going on about this? I do not want to slap you. But do you WANT to be slapped?
"I would say that these phrases describe my purpose in some cryptic way."
Yes, I agree with you. But what about the Lion? The lion is a force for creation and destruction. And it is easy enough to say that you wish to be creative. But in what way, especially considering your bisexuality? So you need to ponder this very deeply. And what about "The Golden King?" What does this really mean for you? What comes up for me with this phrase, or title, if you prefer, is that the king has a responsibility to his people AND to the land. What does this mean to you?
"I think that two shortcomings that I need to address in terms of the dream are TEMPTATION (the cockroach) manifesting as Not Listening and Rebelliousness (LMAO) and JUSTIFICATION, and RESISTANCE (ants) manifesting as Aggression, Inflexibility, Not Listening and Wanting life on my own terms. Am I one the right track?"
Yes, you are. But this is partly why I find it so difficult to work with you. On the one hand you WANT my guidance, and on the other hand you all too often act out your tendencies towards, as you say, aggression, inflexibility, not listening and wanting life on your own terms. Alternatively you just capitulate! So when you ask me if I have NEED of a Man of Action, my answer is, yes. But if you are going to fight me every inch of the way, or simply capitulate, then the answer is no. In a dream you shared with me not so long ago, the message was clear. You MUST have your "neck broken" WILLINGLY! You were not asked to capitulate, for you were not taken by force. Instead you were asked to co-operate.
With much love,