Characteristics, versus behaviour from Warriors' Experience


  • Characteristics, versus behaviour
  • Behaviour, versus characteristics

Question:

Théun, you say: "With much love, support and, please forgive me, laughter,<ebwg>"

I am laughing with you! LAMOF!!! Thank you for helping me to see that.:)

"Ask yourself, my friend, at WHICH stage in the unfoldment of your awareness you find yourself? :)"

Well, I think I am still VERY self-centered. I do sense that I have a definite role to play within the greater scheme of life, but my understanding of that is still very much on intellectual level. I mean, I can see how I do influence some of my brothers and sisters through my actions, but I am still far away from grabbing the divine purpose behind my own existence within the greater scheme of life. So I am indeed preoccupied with anything that has to do with my self. But I also feel that this is how it should be, because before I do grasp my own purpose within life I think I can't be of real service to life. And this is what I was trying to express, but unfortunately the lack of understanding of the right terminology made my words sound misleading. What I meant when I said that one has to be an impeccable egoist is that there are moments in our life when we need to follow the call of our heart and that this could in effect look as if we are placing our own good before the good of anybody else, including our family - or with other words we could be seen as being egoists. In the same time though we MUST learn to TRULY listen to our heart and to not mistaken its call with that of our inner desire for personal gain and life on our terms, which is coming from the mind - or with other words we must be impeccable in dealing with our feelings and emotions. That's how I came to the expression impeccable egoist. I know that my way of expressing this is rather clumsy, but I feel that the idea behind is true. Or am I completely off track here?:)

"As he begins to REASLISE this, and note the word "realise," for it means that he is starting to DEMONSTRATE this upon the physical plane through his actions, he progressively moves towards becoming less and less self-centred, and more and more SELFISH."

I think I understand that, but still on intellectual level, without really having experienced it. What holds me back from having my own experience of being SELFISH as opposed to my current state of self-centerdness is my fear to lose control and go with the flow. In that respect I wanted to ask you if what I sense is correct. In my post in the LR I wrote that I am sensing that I am at the end of a certain cycle of my life and on the verge of a new one. I also wrote that I've been witnessing very often combinations of 9 and 11, which I do explain as a need for completion using my strength. I also feel inner urge to change my current life, change my profession, life style, etc. I feel a call towards healing and therapies. This is also very well coming together with the appearance of the laser business. It seems as if things are nicely fitting together. You told me some time ago that you feel I shouldn't waste my time in marketing anymore, but that I should first set up my other business before I make the move. That's all fine so far, but where my confusion comes from is that I feel I've been given clear signs from power to act on the change, but on the other side I am not sure whether the moment has already come or should I still remain patient. And am I in reality practicing forbearance, or am I rather held by circumstances out of my influence (placing power out of myself)?! Can I actually expect that if I follow the signs of power and the call of my heart the things will somehow work out?! I mean, I understand how stupid my question is and that in reality I am asking if life can guarantee me that I will still live a decent life, a life on my terms after I go for the change, which in reality is VERY arrogant. But I am wondering where is really the line between being afraid/holding oneself back and rushing up things/behaving like a bull in china shop?! LOL!

"And then perhaps go eat a goodly slice of humble pie!<g> It does wonders for the hollowness in the pit of the stomach that comes from trying to fly when you are still struggling to walk. LOL! And DO have a good, long and hard look at how very separative your thinking is. And remember, energy follows thought. So if you are thinking in separative terms, your actions too will be separative. :)"

Thank you for reminding me that, Théun! I know that I've been trying to advance on the path faster then I am in reality able to filter and work out and that this causes that I am mistaking mind chatter with real knowledge. But sometimes I feel that I have discovered something real and I quickly get overexcited and as I share in the LR more and more chatter comes to my mind and often I am unable to differentiate the weed from the harvest (if any LOL!). I also realise that in many aspects I am still the bully I was when I came first on TL and I don't know if I should laugh or cry about it...

May I use this opportunity and ask you on another two things please?

I shared that I feel drawn to healing and therapies. For some time I've been trying to figure out what kind of therapy I should study. After my experience with Reiki from few years ago I feel that I need to practice something which is more grounded and pragmatic. I feel that physiotherapy is a certain direction that I am interested in. However during the search I did I was very attracted by osteopathy. In reality the first time I heard about this healing approach was thanks to Patrick. I discovered a Czech doctor that is teaching osteopathy and applied to her courses. During this weekend I went to part 1 and I must say that I really liked what I learned there, although I was surprised to discover that osteopathy is about working with the vital energies of the body and not about mechanical manipulation of body parts, as I was thinking. I will definitely talk to Patrick and ask him about his experience and understanding of the principles of the therapy, however I also wanted to ask you what do you think about osteopathy and whether you could sense if I should follow that direction?

In that light I also wanted to ask you if you have sensed anything with relation to my direction and predilection that could confirm my feeling that I could be a Courier? Courier feels somehow fitting because I do feel on my place when I am supporting someone who's having the lead, by fulfilling his requests and needs in the best possible way. I think I could be a Courier to the female North, mainly because I recognize that I've been constantly drawn to co-operation with females walking the path, although I can't say if any of them had been North. In the same time openness of heart and warmth could be pointing to the South... What do you feel?

I hope I'm not too daring with my many questions as I understand there are MANY other things in your mind these days. I'll be happy to come back to any of the above later if necessary.

Thank you, Théun.

With all my love and gratitude and a bit of jealousy for the South direction you are heading to:)

Answer:

:) It is very good that you can laugh at your folly, for unless we can laugh at our folly we are doomed to failure on the Warrior's Path, for the simple reason that we take our folly seriously, meaning that we take our little selves seriously! LOL!

I believe now that you have more clarity you are well on your way to learning more and more about your true Self, and what your role within this lifetime is.

".......I am indeed preoccupied with anything that has to do with my self. But I also feel that this is how it should be......"

Yes! And so there is NO need to feel bad about this! This is WHERE you are at right now in the evolution of your awareness, because this is where you NEED to be! But........realise though, that this does NOT give you a license to INDULGE in being self-centred. :) You are now on the Warrior's Path, and therefore because you know better, even if this is just intellectual knowledge, you must still ACKNOWLEDGE where you are at, but also strive to LEARN from it in order to move forward.

"In my post in the LR I wrote that I am sensing that I am at the end of a certain cycle of my life and on the verge of a new one. I also wrote that I've been witnessing very often combinations of 9 and 11, which I do explain as a need for completion using my strength."

Yes. This is correct.

"And am I in reality practicing forbearance, or am I rather held by circumstances out of my influence (placing power out of myself)?! "

My friend, the warrior is FIRST and FOREMOST a practical being! Yes, you MUST follow your heart, but by the same token, you ALSO have to be practical, and most especially as you now have a family who depend on you. This is why I said to you to FIRST build your other business/career BEFORE you stop with your current form of income.

"But I am wondering where is really the line between being afraid/holding oneself back and rushing up things/behaving like a bull in china shop?! LOL! "

LOL! This is what I mean when I say that people today LACK common sense! What USED to be COMMON sense when I was a kid, appears to have become VERY uncommon today! LOL!

"I also realise that in many aspects I am still the bully I was when I came first on TL and I don't know if I should laugh or cry about it...”

Laugh, my friend, laugh! <g> Juan once said to Carlos, when Carlos was pretending to have changed so much, "You and I were both born as farts, and farts we will die!" LOL! You see, my friend, some things within us are the results of BEHAVIOUR, but some things in us are CHARACTERISTICS which we have for life! Behaviour we can change, but the ONLY thing we can do with a characteristic is to transmute it into something a little more life-supportive! LOL! You and I are both bullies, but I have learned to bully people in a life-supportive way, although I am acutely aware that at times I just feel like giving in to my bully tactics by taking a sledge hammer to whoever is irritating the shit out of me at that moment! LAMOF! I have a lust for blood in me that I have to work HARD at containing! LAMOF! But generally speaking I have learned to be quite a gentle old nagal, VERY persuasive, yes, and VERY convincing, yes, but nevertheless gentle. <g> But at heart I am STILL an absolute bully! So if you know what is good for you, DON'T come prodding me with a stick! LOL!

"After my experience with Reiki from few years ago I feel that I need to practice something which is more grounded and pragmatic."

Forget about Reiki. The Reiki energy, as good as it was, has become contaminated within the web of life. It is today no longer working like it should work. In fact, it has become quite lethal as a healing art. You should not practise Reiki.

"........I also wanted to ask you what do you think about osteopathy and whether you could sense if I should follow that direction? "

I have a lot of respect for osteopathy, but it is not for you. Oh, by all means do the course, for you will learn a lot! But you need to work with your hands if you are going to heal. When I met you I sensed the power inherent within your hands, and so you should look at doing one of the physical healing arts, like physiotherapy or better still, hands-on healing, except that I do not know where you will find someone who can teach you hands-on healing in this part of the world, for it has today become a forgotten art. I know of only one healer who COULD teach you this art, but he lives in Cape Town, South Africa. He is exceptional, and perhaps he can point you in the right direction. You can discuss him with Elizabeth at the course in Prague, for we both know him well. His name is Mark. :)

"In that light I also wanted to ask you if you have sensed anything with relation to my direction and predilection that could confirm my feeling that I could be a Courier? "

Yes, I have, but I always like to make SURE first before speaking. You are a stalking Courier to the nagal. :)

With all my love and warmth,
(BH)
Théun