Théun, thank you for pointing out so many things to me. I cannot express how I really appreciate all that you keep doing to help me and all of us for that matter. Really thank you!
It is true that I had the misconception of thinking that following my heart meant everlasting happiness. Thank you for nudging me again into a new direction to explore.
I read and re-read several times "I am prepared to run from my own steam" before sending my previous guidance request and although I could feel something was not right, I could not see what it was! I had a good laugh at myself when reading your explanation!
And I also had a good laugh when you highlighted my folly with the circus post I wrote last Friday! And more importantly, laughter was not the only effect it had on me.
When I said I was becoming more daring, what I really meant is that I am more confident because I do not need to indulge in debating whether or not what is happening is SEEING and/or my assemblage point moving. Now that I am sure that I am not fooling myself into imagining that I can actually move my assemblage point and somehow SEE, I have more "energy" or "je ne sais quoi" to experience in more depth my potential. In other words, I don't waste my power by doubting what is happening, instead I just experience it.
But also, I understand the vital importance of what you tried to tell me when you answered my question about whether or not it was my assemblage point which I had sensed moving. I am practicing asking myself the right questions.
I now also understand better what you are saying when you tell me that I talk too much.
ACTIONS speak louder than WORDS.
It seems so many things took place in my life this week. As you probably have read in my last LV post, this week I have learned from experience what you mean by ACTION. If I got this wrong please hit me with all I can handle!
Tplain how I began understanding what you mean by ACTION, I would like to use the example I used in my guidance request to D (in communiqué 90). Looking back at when I stalked my student, I understood that I had very much taken some ACTION. I was not re-acting and/or re-enacting my folly, instead I was really choosing my ACTIONS. I was 100% in the moment. That's why I think that the kind of action you encourage us to take includes keeping our level of alertness, awareness high to feel the world around us. Being wide awake ALL the time.
I am also in the process of re-reading your books. It had been a long time since I had done that. I now make connections I could have never made before working with you here on TL and at the retreats and of course, working with all my challenges and BS!
I am really thankful for your everlasting unconditional love and patience.
"I also had a good laugh when you highlighted my folly with the circus post I wrote last Friday! "
LOL! You must know that you are in SERIOUS trouble once your internal dialogue starts having its own internal dialogue! RATFL!
"I don't waste my power by doubting what is happening, instead I just experience it."
"I now also understand better what you are saying when you tell me that I talk too much. "
Phew! That is a relief to know! :) Now you can start writing me shorter emails! Learning to be CONCISE and BRIEF is of vital importance in the work of a seer. Long, rambling explanations confuse not only your lsitener, but also yourself as the seer! And this is especially true when it comes to aphorisms. It is VITAL that every seer who hopes to be worth his salt CAN express the most profound truth in SIMPLE but nonetheless CLEAR words! And in this it is of ABSOLUTE importance to be able to encapsulate the truth being conveyed in layers upon layers of meaning, for only in this way can the WHOLE truth be conveyed ACCURATELY and SUCCINCTLY in a few simple words. Aphorisms, if you like, is the shorthand of seers. Take for example, the short little aphorism, "True power is knowledge of the self as a unit of the One Life. There is no power greater than knowledge of the nagal."
24 short words. Two brief sentences. But all in all there are, in metaphorical terms, 14 layers to this one little onion. Each layer is an aspect of the overall truth this aphorism conveys, and each layer opens up a whole host of questions that will lead you on into seeking ever more deeply. Each of these layers relate to one or more of the other aphorisms, and if these links are followed a whole new understanding of the teachings is revealed. Furthermore, like with all the aphorisms, this one little aphorism, as simple as it appears to be, can be expanded into several books in order to explain fully each of its layers, and the links to these layers. Consequently it takes enormous EXPERIENCE in seeing, considerable SKILL in the art of verbalisation, and, of course, LITERACY to be able to ACCURATELY encapsulate so much truth in a mere 24 words! :) How many layers can you see now? Most people only ever see the first layer, and even then, they fail to see the deeper implications within that first layer. They simply ASSUME that they understand the aphorism, and thereby miss one of THE most important implications within the very first layer of this aphorism, namely, what is knowledge of the self?
"If I got this wrong please hit me with all I can handle! "
LOL! You did not get it wrong! But tell me, what is the point of hitting you with what you CAN handle? The whole point of hitting anyone is to bring them OFF balance for long enough so that they MAY see their folly for what it is! So the art of the nagal is to know just HOW hard to hit an apprentice so as to bring him or her OFF balance, but not to such an extent that the apprentice can never again get up! So what is the point in hitting you with only what you can handle? LOL! All I would be doing in that case is giving you a headache! LOL! I point this out because you are still so sloppy with your choice of words! Terrible for a trainee seer! If D were to speak to me like you do I would hit him HARD! LOL!
"That's why I think that the kind of action you encourage us to take includes keeping our level of alertness, awareness high to feel the world around us. Being wide awake ALL the time."
:) Yes. You are getting there! Realise that ANY action, no matter HOW "heartfelt" it may be, if taken when you are half-asleep, is just PURE folly! LOL! But if I may use a very crude analogy to explain this to you, then it may make even more sense to you, and will hopefully also show you why I sometimes collapse with laughter when I SEE people's folly! Admittedly, the visual impressions I get as a seer are greatly influenced by my very naughty sense of humour surrounding the fact that humanity today spells SEX with capital letters!
The way I will often see the actions of a half-asleep man, is that he is on the job, as it were, but with ZERO erection. He has managed to get it "in there," and is humping up a storm! He is sweating, and he is huffing and puffing, and he is giving it his all! But from my perspective as a seer it is clear to see that sweet blow all is going to happen! But the really funny part to all of this is that the man so "sincerely" believes that he is actually going to get somewhere! LOL! And the visual impact I sometimes get when I see a woman "acting" from a half asleep state is equally hysterical! Such a woman appears to my seer's vision like a woman that is highly pregnant and about to pop any moment! Except that she is "pregnant" with a whole lot of hot air! If she truly were to give "birth" to THAT lot it would be like one huge fart! And then, oh boy, the funniest of all is when you put a man like the one I have just described together with a "hot air" woman! What do you get? You get the kind of "intelligent" co-operation where eventually he has pumped her SO full of hot air, that she involuntarily "farts" which upsets him no end, and makes her feel like shit about herself! LOL! But then you must understand, that if these are apprentices, then I have to keep a VERY straight face, swallow my wicked sense of humour so as not to offend them, and try my absolute level best to give them honest guidance without falling off my chair laughing! This is not always easy! <g> and LOL!
"I am really thankful for your everlasting unconditional love and patience. "
LOL! Thank you! But I am not so sure I can claim to have everlasting patience! LOL! I can honestly say that when people fail to understand something, but I can see that they are STRUGGLING to understand, then, yes, I have infinite patience! But when I see people simply INDULGING in their folly then I get to a point where I take off the gloves and let rip! LOL!
With much love and laughter,
P.S. I mentioned to you that I may have a proposal for you. My proposal is as follows:
After I made the decision to relocate my family and myself to Chile we were going to sell our property, Firdale Brook, in Slovakia. However, power has now made it clear that we should NOT sell this property, but instead keep it. So now we have other ideas for Firdale Brook, but we first need money before we can implement these ideas. However, in the meantime, we will soon need a caretaker for Firdale Brook once the last of the remaining family in Slovakia move to join us in Chile. I do not want to leave Firdale Brook standing empty with no caretaker.
So if you would like a place to live for a while, rent free, whilst you set up an internet business for yourself with the lasers, how would you feel about taking care of Firdale Brook for us until such time as that we can do with it what we are now planning to do? If this is something you would like, then obviously there are practical details we will need to sort out, but we can do this through private correspondence. Not the least of the practical details that will need to be sorted out is you getting a visa for "working" in Slovakia. But we should be able to help you with this as you will be "employed" by one of our Slovakian companies. But it will be up to you to do the required leg work IF you would like to take me up on my offer. We do not have the time to change you nappy for you! <wg>